Worrisome

Oh how I could use some comfort food right now.

There is a wee wild beast tearing through the tiny casa with it's tail so full I would swear it was a raccoon. The sky is gray and heavy with clouds, the air is cool and I have so much to do and yet I feel exhausted. There are the beginnings of a sore throat which was predicted the moment the mister's tonsils swelled and there is the heavy, heavy tiredness that comes with worry. I'm not a "worry a little" kind of a person, I am a big time downward spiral style worrier. When I have one thing to worry about I decide my worry needs company so I find other things to worry about. This time, while I did indeed add to my worry, I actually have other things heavy on my mind. It is not unlike the can of crushed pineapple that recently exploded in our tiny pantry cabinet. I feel I need to let it out, unload but I don't everyone to run for the hills. I don't know exactly what I want but maybe all I need is to get it out there. So here is a rambling list o' worries feel free to scroll down to the happy picture instead.

Grandma worries me so, though yesterday she was doing so well she appeared back to normal. But I still worry about her, about her knowing she is near her end and I feel so sad for her because I can see it in her eyes that she wanted to do more but simply didn't and I selfishly worry that I will have those same regrets. I worry for the mister and his worrying. He's almost better at worrying than I am, our tiny casa right now is most certainly a place of doom and gloom though we try hard to mask it all with gnome making, cookie baking and polka dancing. I worry about my sister and all that she is going through. I worry about my brother, he may not live too far from me but sometimes I feel he is miles away. I worry for a dear, dear friend who has recently received the most awful news. I worry for my dear Roomie and her worries about her son. I feel unsure of my capabilities and am finding it so difficult to concentrate on schoolwork and then I feel a "why bother" sense and wonder what am I going to do...with my life. How will I contribute? How can I contribute? I worry for the family a-go-go and all their ups and downs and I feel so, so, sad and tired. I feel a sad longing for my grandma, my mother, I miss her so much, and for our failed attempts at a wee baby a-go-go. I feel sad, anxious, tired and lost. I want to pull all the shades and go back to sleep so that I can wake up to sunshine and lighter endeavors. Instead I will sit on the sofa and stitch, stitch away. I will bake some pumpkin cookies, watch taped television and attempt to work on my papers. Instead I will do my best to create something that makes me smile, if only for a moment.

A Shout out to my Chicago Friends!

Come and support my craftiness along with oodles of other artists at the very first FLIST! Here's a snippet of what FLIST is all about:

We live in a largely online world today, and the new reality of blogging as a crucial communication tool has not been lost on artists. FLIST was created to explore how people and ideas connect through blogs and online communities via a physical art show. Through FLIST, established and unknown artists alike share ideas, network, promote work, and, in many cases, meet face-to-face for the first time. FLIST’s vision does not end with blogger-artists, however, as the exhibit is designed for everyone interested in discovering these dynamic online communities - all built with a passion for art at their foundation.

The opening reception is tomorrow from 7pm-2am at Happy Dog Gallery in Chicago. Directions and more info can be found here. There will a selection of foofoo bunnies, spunk rock onesies and dashboard dollies for sale all made by moi! There will also be oodles of fun, art, music and more. Check it out and take pictures for me please! I wish I could be there!

More begging and pleading coming soon, though the next post will be for my Seattle peeps! Is anyone going to Plush You?

The week in review: September 24-30

the week in review: september 24-30
While the week did not start out as exhausting ,it sure did end that way. Thank you to all the well wishes for granny. She is still in the hospital and things are as good as they can be, considering. We're keeping an eye on her fluid intake and the doctor's are trying to level out her calcium and potassium but it looks like we will be entering into the realm of Hospice care. It has been a long, long weekend. The mister and I spent it thinking of granny and visiting with her while entertaining two energetic kidlets the whole time. Phew! As hard as the weekend was on the granny front, we enjoyed many a performance of wee one's dancing to Proud Mary, countless games of Go Fish, readings of Book! Book! Book!, pumpkin painting and a whole lot of dancing. No wonder I'm spent! In a good way.

The beginning of the week however was full of crafting, writing and school prep. Our poor tiny casa looks a mess and needs a desperate cleaning if only to find my embroidery needle and the good scissors. Really, it needs a lot of sweeping and scrubbing but today I am not going to stress about it. Today I will do a little baking, a little crafting, a little writing and a long nap. Tomorrow I clean.

I wish you and your loved ones well and if you have your grannies around you give them a squeeze from me.

But I don't want any lemonade!

I was super crafty yesterday and managed to pull all my notes together for tomorrow's in class presentation. My plan for today was to write it all up, clean a little and finish up a bunch of crafts. It looks like I'll be putting it all aside for today, Granny is headed to the hospital with chest pains. I hate phone calls that give me scary information. Granny is 94 years old and sometimes we joke she will out live us all but at the same time 94 is a momentus age and I worry about her all the time. Admittedly I get frustrated with the rest of the grandkids who don't offer much or anything at all. My sister is too far away and my brother is too busy I guess. As for my cousins, they don't even ask how she is doing which puts a whole different sadness into the mix. Anyway I juice these lemons it is going to be bittersweet. Send out your good thoughts and vibes for granny please. She can use all the lurve she can get.

It's Fall!

And it almost feels like it weather-wise. Our neighbor brought over this tasty treat on Saturday. It was super yummy and went especially well with the just baked gingerbread I had made. Saturday was a weird flukey day. We had a rainstorm that flooded the wee garden but once the rain stopped it cleared up leaving big swatches of mulch all willy nilly. The mister was trying to work in the garden and the big drops came in surges. It was an odd sight. Dark, gloomy but dry and then WHAM! Super powerful, heavy rain then silence and then it starts all over again. The poor mister would take to sitting under the shade tent until it stopped. At one point I donned my raincoat and went out sit with him. I love the rain...mostly...unless of course it has been raining for days and days then, not so much.

The days this week are pretty warm but the breeze is cool so it is super nice outside. The nights are cool yet warm still and all I need is a sheet until around three in the morning when it turns chilly enough for a blanket. I love this type of weather! My paper is finally finished and now I'm working on a bookmaking presentation. At least, I'm thinking about the presentation which I believe I need to do this Saturday but today I have set aside for swap crafting ,shop crafting and crafting crafting. I've got flicks from the library, an awesome, amazing book and a huge stack of magazines full of Halloween fun. Today is going to be a good day so go away bad brain. I don't want you hanging around, you hear?

Happy Wednesday folks!

the week in review: september 17-23
Wowza! There was whole lot of somethin' and then a whole lot of nothin' last week. Mostly methinks it is because I am so swell at procrastinating. That darn paper is driving me batty and then of course I remembered that my presentation is coming up also...yikes! which makes this week a week of schoolwork! I had better get off the computer and plan my presentation...but first let me share a little of what went down last week. You can click on the link to find out more about the pics if ya like.

Let's see, there was crafting and writing and a wee bit o' baking. There was mulch getting and a rainstorm followed movie watching and gingerbread eating. There were family visits and friendly visits and touristy stuff like museum going and t.v. show tapings. There were packages sent and packages received and oodles and bunches of monkey making. The mister and I, along with Jenny from Felt Club spent a day at the Los Angeles County Fair chatting up folks about the fine art of monkey making, the wonders of Craft magazine and the delightfulness of Felt Club. We talked monkeys, we made monkeys and we crafted up a sock critter storm with a most nifty crowd of youngsters. After the crafting we wandered the fair like silver balls in a pinball machine. We were jostled left, bounced right and shot all the way up to the barn where we saw baby goats, piglets and wee little lambs. It was so very nifty and there were all sorts of chickens! Yay for chickens! I'll upload pics at some point. Overall, last week was mighty busy and I can;t wait for a week of nothing. This week won't be it...drats!

Happy almost October folks!