Monday, February 13, 2012
i'm in need of a nap
Today I almost, almost fell asleep sitting in my brother's new room as he slept soundly beside me. It rained today and the view out the window was quite pretty. My body is tired and my brain is fuzzy and I am certain I am forgetting to call people and eat and keep hydrated. I am so sleepy and full of so many emotions...all those residual memories of other hospital visits and traumas and near misses and tragedies. I am trying to remember to take care of myself and admit that it is okay to want to flee and return to my tiny cluttered casa full of fabric bits and unswept floors. It will happen soon enough and until then I need to embrace normalness. It's okay to eat a treat, read a book, play on pinterest or laugh with friends. It doesn't take away from caring for my brother or myself or the mister. With any luck and good thoughts, I will manage a nap, a hug and maybe, just maybe, finally get that coke I've been craving. Thank you again for your words of support and encouragement. I'm going to post a pretty picture just because and maybe tomorrow I can write about something less exciting.